Nothing New

'Nothing New" - That was how the conversation with mom started out tonight. When mom left, the evening nurse promised to keep dad comfortable and to check in on him often. Mom said dad is totally unable to push the "call bell" if he needs help. Mom hates the thought of dad waking up scared - or just needing something and unable to get someones attention. She remembers being on pain meds or sedatives and having scary dreams and visions of stuff that weren't there. Of course we have no idea what is going on in dad's head - but mom said sometimes he wakes up with an odd - scared look on his face and always seems to be glad to see her as he comes out of it.

Yesterday mom admits that both she and dad broke down a couple of times. She said that all the information was started to hit her and she was just so tired. The doctor took time to talk with mom this morning - in a bunch of additional words - told her that they really want to see dad get better and they are working their best on figuring out what is going on - and they are sorry that things are not progressing well right now but they aren't giving up.

Tonight Ben & I looked through a bunch of pictures and made a collage for dad. We are going to show him tomorrow and then hang it on his ceiling. Mom said he spends a lot of the waking time just staring up because that is the way he is facing and he can't move on his own (not even to pick his head up and look around - I didn't know that before!). Hopefully we can disrupt things a little tomorrow and put a smile on both their faces.

I will not be posting again until Sunday night because we will be heading there for the day tomorrow. Have a wonderful sabbath day!